The Quest For Fulfilment
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© Copyright, Grantley Morris, 1985-1996.
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Chapter 5: God's Radical Views
It is common in our society to refer to one's leaders as 'superiors'.
No wonder we fall for the lie that some vocations are superior.
This delusion has so fogged our thinking that it would seem to
require thousands of words to clear our minds. Yet just one sentence
from Andrew Carnegie's epitaph almost does it. This man started
working for two cents an hour and ended up giving away $365 million.
His leadership ability was the key. Before he died he ensured
his tombstone read:
'Here lies one who knew how to gather around him men who were
cleverer than himself.'
When referring to the leaders and big names of the Jerusalem church,
Paul wrote:
'... those who seem to be something - whatever they were, it makes
no difference to me; God shows personal favouritism to no man
-' (Galatians 2:6, New King James Version)
Let the truth overwhelm you: Paul was writing about the so-called
pillars of the church, including Peter, James and John. (Galatians
2:9) He had in mind the most intimate friends of Jesus when divinely
moved to declare that God has no favourites.
Try the Amplified Bible:
'... those who were reputed to be something, though what was their
individual position and whether they really were of importance
or not makes no difference to me; God is not impressed with the
positions that men hold and he is not partial and recognises no
external distinctions.'
One more time, remembering that Paul was referring to apostles
ranked with the greatest and most spiritually gifted leaders the
church has ever known:
'... as far as their reputed leaders were concerned (I neither
know nor care what their exact position was: God is not impressed
with a man's office) ...'
And what of the great apostle himself? Paul reminded the Corinthians
that he preached Jesus as Lord and himself, not merely as Christ's
servant but as their slave/servant. (2 Corinthians 4:5
- note also 1 Corinthians 3:4-7) Burn that into your brain.
Prominence in the church - even God-ordained prominence - does
not imply prominence in the heart of God. Not even apostleship
breaks this immutable rule.
Except perhaps for a malfunctioning part of our body, our hair
usually receives more attention than any other physical part of
us, even though it is the least important. This paradox, insisted
Paul, is typical of the way God deliberately arranges honour,
prominence and attention among the members of his church. (1 Corinthians
12:23-25)
Leadership is valuable, but there are a multitude of ministries
of equal significance.
It is our carnal side that covets leadership. Few of us display
the spirit of Francis of Assisi. When his followers had swollen
to thousands they began to abandon his principles. He returned
from Egypt to find that the men he had left in charge were forbidding
the eating of meat and allowing the ownership of goods. His response
to those wanting to usurp his authority was to humbly relinquish
leadership of the order he had founded. The Friars selected another
leader, to whom Francis submitted as a common brother. Even on
his death-bed, some eight years later, Francis bowed to his 'superior's'
directive that he stop singing and face death in a more 'dignified'
manner.
Centuries later, George Whitefield, declared, 'I know my place
... even to be servant of all.' (Dunn, p 18) Whitefield was the
powerful founder of the Methodist movement. Today he is rarely
credited with this honour. To foster love and unity between his
followers and Wesley's he abandoned his leadership rights and
turned the entire ministry over to Wesley. To his horrified supporters
he said, 'Let my name be forgotten, let me be trodden under the
feet of all men, if Jesus may thereby be glorified ...'
Not everything that passes as leadership in the Christian church
corresponds to Christ-likeness.
'Fame, said Emerson, 'is proof that people are gullible.' Not
the full harvest, perhaps, but those words are heavy with truth.
For instance, few Christians actually write the books they are
credited with. Miss Hardwork could write a biography about Dr
Big-un and be the acknowledged author. Instead, Big-un might ask
Hardwork to change the pronouns from he/him to I/me and call the
book The Big-un Story by Dr Big-un. It would not be unusual
for Hardwork's name to appear no-where in the book, not even in
the section where Prof. Swellhead is thanked for scratching his
nose and Sister Jane for feeding the cat. And somehow most of
the royalties end up in Big-un's bank account. That's fair. He
has so many more expenses. Simple things like clothing cost a
fortune when ten thousand eyes are on you. No one sees Miss Hardwork,
so her five-year-old dress and shabby shoes are quite adequate.
I'll repent of my cynicism by pointing out that many conservative
scholars believe the Bible has its share of ghost-writers - almost
nameless people who, under an apostle's direction and the Spirit's
anointing, used their own words to express the apostle's heart.
It's not for us to judge Big-un. But there is a Judge, and in
the end everything will pan out. Meanwhile, let's try not to let
some people shrink to nothing in our estimation while a few Big-uns
fill the entire screen of our mind.
Nicky Cruz kindly insisted that Jamie Buckingham's name appear
on the book Jamie wrote for him. By the time the publisher was
finished, the author's name was not only smaller than Nicky's,
but smaller than that of Billy Graham who merely 'wrote' the foreword.
(Actually, the foreword was written by Lee Fisher, Billy's ghost-writer.)
Jamie was peeved about that cover until humbled by the realisation
that God's name appeared no-where on the cover. After that, he
decided to become a holy ghost-writer. His next book was called
God Can Do It Again by Kathryn Kuhlman. (I always thought
she wrote that.) Jamie had his wish: God's name was on the cover.
As Jamie discovered, relative to our Saviour, we don't get such
a raw deal. If torrential rain on foolishly deforested land causes
a flood, it is 'an act of God'. If the weather is perfect, who
needs God? If someone smashes his thumb with a hammer, whose name
gets cursed? If the hammer is on target - don't talk to me about
God, I've got work to do.
Following our Saviour may take us into the shadows, but the time
will come when we'll shine like the sun. (Matthew 10:25-26; 13:43)
Another fallacy I'd like to pulverise is the notion that for a
ministry to be important it must touch many lives.
Bible translators Des and Jenny Oatridge were so sure that God
cares not just for the thousands but for the ones and twos that
they resolved to bypass large language groups that needed the
Bible and find a language known only by a tiny minority. They
got their wish when they heard of a language on the verge of extinction
in Papua New Guinea. It was spoken by just 111 people. To sacrificially
spend one's life for so few would be remarkable if that tiny population
were stable, but their numbers were plummeting at a phenomenal
rate. Moreover, relative to hundreds of language groups, their
need was minor; the tribe already had a strong Christian witness
in languages they half knew. Nonetheless, the Oatridges devoted
more than a quarter of a century to the herculean task of putting
God's Word into the mother tongue of this dying tribe. The heart
of God and the hope that a few primitives might more fully comprehend
the Gospel spurred them year after year.
Many of us would feel failures if our sole ministry were to a
few retarded people. Yet we would think we had 'arrived' if our
ministry were to three millionaires. What twisted minds we've
got.
Let's push aside petty human concepts and rise to the challenge
of thinking like God.
The Saviour shed as much blood for a derelict as he did for the
entire world. In the combined angelic and human hosts there might
be a trillion objects of God's love, yet our amazing Lord loves
an individual, not with a trillionth of his love, but with all
his love. Moreover, his love for that person is infinite. You
can't exceed 'all', nor can you beat infinity. That makes it impossible
for God's collective love for a million, or a trillion, to exceed
his love for one solitary person. That's perfect love.
So, as staggering as it seems, if you alone can reach a particular
individual, your contribution is as vital to God as that of someone
who can reach a million.
Moreover, people who on earth enjoy popularity are already receiving
a portion of their reward. Other things being equal, if your labours
are unrecognised, you are more blessed than the person made famous
by the obvious success of reaching a million. Instead of receiving
your reward now, you're accumulating eternal wealth. That's great
news because heaven's interest rates are out of this world. (Luke
14:12-14; 12:33; 1 Corinthians 9:18)
Forget the multitudes; you are blessed if, by being true to your
call, you touch just one person.
In fact you can do seemingly even less and still accomplish much.
Consider Scott and his team, who struggled to the South Pole only
to discover their honour of being the first to reach the Pole
was lost forever. Amundsen had beaten them by about a month. To
add to the futility, they endured further blizzards, illness,
frostbite and starvation only to perish; the last three dying
just a few kilometres from safety. Yet today their miserable defeat
ending with death in frozen isolation, witnessed by not a living
soul, is hailed as one on the greatest ever epics of human exploration
and endurance.
Every fibre of my being is convinced that their glory is just
a shadow of what you can achieve. Though you suffer in isolation
and apparent futility, the depths of your trial known to no one
on earth, your name could be blazed in heaven's lights, honoured
forever by heaven's throngs for your epic struggle with illness,
bereavement, or whatever. The day is coming when what is endured
in secret will be shouted from the housetops. Look at Job: bewildered,
maligned, misunderstood; battling not some heroic foe but essentially
common things - a financial reversal, bereavement, illness; -
not cheered on by screaming fans, just booed by some one-time
friends. If even on this crazy planet Job is honoured today, I
can't imagine the acclaim awaiting you when all is revealed. Your
battle with life's miseries can be as daring as David's encounter
with Goliath. Don't worry that others don't understand this at
present. One day they will.
A further reason why some of us undervalue our ministry is because
we have not received a call of the thunder and lightning variety.
God's call is his selecting and empowering an individual for a
specific task. The response he expects is not necessarily to do
anything new. You've asked for God's guidance haven't you? Don't
you think God just might be smart enough to have manoeuvred events
so that your divine assignment is right in front of you? If so,
he simply expects you to plunge into what you are already doing.
Don't conclude you have a second-rate ministry just because you
have no need for angels in luminescent nighties to boom something
stirring like, 'You should be doing something else, O great and
mighty blockhead.' There are Christians like Thomas who believe
only because of a divine visitation. Yet, contrary to the way
we often feel, Jesus affirmed that the people to be envied are
those who believe without such displays. (John 20:29)
So long have I been tinkering with this book that it was years
after penning the above that I sank into perhaps the blackest
time of my spiritual life. It lasted for over a year and it was
largely because I forgot the truth of the above paragraph.
I craved greater intimacy with God and more spiritual power. My
one passion - my one reason for living - was to know Jesus and
bring him glory. To allow more time for seeking the Lord I stopped
my habitual revising of the book. I knew that my brain needed
continual refilling with the words of this book or its truths
would slowly seep from my mind, but I hoped the resulting frustration
and lowered faith levels would merely intensify my drive to seek
God. Heaven's steely silence was devastating. Nearly every day
I seemed to slump deeper until I was forced to re-read the book
for my own survival. It worked. Meditating on the book revealed
that my search for a spiritual breakthrough had degenerated into
an excuse for unbelief. I had been edging closer and closer to
refusing to believe God has great plans for me or even that he
loves me unless he gave me an undeniably supernatural experience
on which to hang my faith. How could I be so stupid? (Don't answer
that.) I was on dangerous ground. The omnipotent Lord, whose word
is impossible to break, has gone to the extreme of putting his
promises in writing. How dare I imply that even that is not enough!
Do I need a flock of angels on my roof, or an all expense paid
trip to heaven and back before I will accept that God thinks I
am important to him? Christ's shed blood proves God's pledge of
total commitment to me. Am I to pronounce that sacrifice inadequate
and demand additional proof? Must God send a bolt of spiritual
electricity through me before I'll believe he wants to powerfully
use me?
In his grace God might do something extra for me, as he has done
for thousands, but to so focus on this possibility as to not believe
unless he does it, is the height of impertinence.
If every non-Christian on this planet had amazing (though phoney)
spiritual encounters and every Christian received divine visitations
everyday, and I alone in all humanity experienced nothing, it
could never diminish the infinitude of God's devotion to me. If
in his wisdom God decides to cut me off from such experiences
in order to toughen my faith - that essential ingredient of spiritual
life, more valuable than earth's treasures - it is yet another
demonstration of his love.
Faith in the unchangeable character of God is the only bedrock
upon which a person's ministry call can be founded. We have no
need for God to write in the sky because he has written in a book.
And Jesus taught that people who fail to believe the Bible would
not believe even if they experienced the ultimate miracle of someone
they knew returning from the dead and warning them. (Luke 16:27-31)
I dare not slacken my quest for a deeper spiritual experience.
I will welcome any manifestation of the Spirit of God in my life
and not proudly assume I don't need it, but if God decides not
to use such means to prop up my spiritual life, it merely proves
the depth of his confidence in me. He obviously believes I have
the grit to tough it out by raw faith.
Our call needs not spectacular confirmation but spectacular commitment.
Dr Big-un
Infinity
No call?